Well here we are...

Since deciding to blog again, I've felt good about my decision.

I left blogging for a period of time because in the end, it had changed from what it once was to me. Originally it was a means to keep up with those in my social circle. Feeling obligated to do it "because everyone else was doing it" I started my first blog. Then, once I got into it, I began to enjoy it. I got to meet some of the best people that I wouldn't have met otherwise. Then things changed for me. Namely my social circle, it became something I didn't recognize any longer and personally didn't want to be a part of, except for one lone person. So, I extracted myself from it, not by choice mind ya, but because I hurt the one person I never would have intended to. Knowing our circle and how catty it could be at times and figuring that everyone in the group looked up to her and she'd weave a tale of my exploits, I was unsure if she'd blow things out of proportion or how it all would go, so I figured, my best bet was to just disappear. So I that's just what I did. Walking away from all the friends I'd known up to that point, only save a select handful.

While missing some of those from that circle and most definitely not missing some others (as is bound to happen in these sorts of circumstances), I found that after awhile I was missing the most important thing. Me. As well, I was missing the camaraderie that comes with being a small part of something bigger.

So here I am again. Not so much anymore with my heart on my sleeve like before. Quite honestly, I'm a lot more guarded than what I was because of all of this, yet, I feel like a part of me is still willing to creep out a bit at a time to take a peek and see if things have improved (or not). Hopefully I'll be the person I once was, if not a bit more jaded and guarded, but most definately improved.